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Midnight Worries & Fears #666


Midnight Worries & Fears

Good midnight, lurkers!



Failure.


    A genuine failure will feel heavier as regrets add to it. The what-ifs will fan the flames until you burn yourself from disappointment, shame, and sadness. The cumulative result of continuous failing will eventually outweigh all of your achievements and self-beliefs, making you slowly despise and question your own existence. 


You tried your best.


    Will absolutely sound bullshit because of its absurdity, if one's mind is clouded with terrible self-judgment and which case, is very common for most people. The "why do I need to try my best if I'm going to fail like this anyway?" would pop out every now and then as you dread your abilities at the moment. It seems futile to try again, right?



To make the long story short, 

    I hated myself for as long as I can remember. I hated how weak, ignorant, arrogant, and how much of a failure I am since I was 12 years old. But fuck it, no one knows and no one cares. Until then, all of it will be taken to my grave and my grave alone. ዶጻ

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