Midnight Worries & Fears Good midnight, lurkers! Lover. Oh, there was a girl, a girl so irresistible, so lovely, yet somehow, I find her confusing at times. I've never loved anyone like that, and I know for a fact, it would take another lifetime for me to love this way once again. It's been months, great months, just until I discovered where I was in her heart and mind. I was placed on the bottom. Now, I don't find her confusing at all as I now realize what I was to her. Will she read this? Yes, she will. I hope not, but she will. I loved her too much, and I can't go back. How funny, I often described myself as someone who couldn't commit to such things, and now look at me. I'm tripping just to have her time and attention.