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Midnight Worries & Fears #4

Midnight Worries & Fears

Good midnight, lurkers!


We cannot pick or choose our own family. 

Why? 

God knows why. I have no clue. Family is supposed to be the people that will support you throughout your life, and of course, you should support them back. Give back. Help back. In my case, I am very fortunate to have a great family. My mother and father are very hardworking and reliable. My sister as well. I love them to death. I can sell my soul for them. I would bleed for them.


I'm just talking about my family because I currently have no friends. No social interactions with other people at the moment. I'm just talking about my family because even though I got them, I couldn't help but feel alone most of my life. I thought I'm going to feel better in my 20's. But shit, I've been feeling alone for 14 fucking years. 

I will never have the courage to tell them how I feel so isolated in this life. 

Because compared to what they felt and went through, my feelings right now are close to nothing. To be honest, I just don't know what to do at this point. I want to run away for a while. I'm heavily jealous of the people that can run away and hide for a while. Because I can't. 

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